No Pressure


Warning: This is a very personal entry. I’ll be talking about my grades and look like a very grade-conscious person. Hahaha!

In first year, I only had one goal – to maintain my scholarship status. The cut-off grade is a GPA of 2.5 (79-80), so I made sure I got at least 80 in all of my exams – even the surprise short quizzes! In one major subject, I always got shifting grades like 79.7 or 79.9, which sometimes hurt my self-esteem when it shouldn’t have.

All that pressure paid off as I somehow ended up in the top ten at the end of the year. (Operative word is somehow – as in CHAMBA lang talaga yun.)

In second year, I thought I needed to level up my goal, which is to maintain my top ten status. I tried at first, but eventually the transcription notes got thicker (30 pages per lecture), the exams piled up (four in a week), and I got lazy. 2nd year was a total info overload; and my mantra was always to “know how to choose my battles.”

I did. I studied what I had to and what I could, but never felt bad if I missed a few questions which are considered “unimportant” in my book. In the end, my high scores meant I simply studied the right material, while my low scores meant I had no more time to look back at my notes before they gave out the questionnaires.

That’s what I kept telling myself, which is not exactly good. I failed to recognize two important things to get to the top – extreme discipline and a competitive side. I lacked both, pushing me 9 slots down at the end of 2nd year.

3rd year so far is a whole other story. We cram through our transcription notes for our daily quizzes, spend the night on our laptops writing papers and preparing reports,  and barely have time to actually open our books for our exams. It’s hard and it comes with physical, mental, and emotional stress – but I love it. I feel like this is exactly the kind of environment that fosters both independent and cooperative learning, as well as integration and application.

Me at the library. Supposedly studying, but really just talking to my best friends through Viber. Haha.

Me at the library. Supposedly studying, but really just talking to my best friends through Viber. Haha.

That said, I have three new goals before I finally head off to junior internship.
1. Learn as much as I can, whether my exam scores reflect it or not.
2. Never cry, even if I get unjustly humiliated.
3. Improve my muscle mass and endurance, starting with my brand new stability running shoes. 🙂

Let’s keep it positive. Med school is hard enough as it is – no need for extra pressure.

 


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6 thoughts on “No Pressure

  • Anonymous

    Hello ate Aura 🙂 idol ko po kayo.. 1st year po ako, PLM din po. malaking help po ung blog niyo para makapasok ako.. Thank you po talaga.. tapos na po 2nd shifting and may dilemma po ako 🙁 Cat 5 po ako and need po mamaintain ng grade 🙁 hingi po sana ako ng advise kinakabahan po kasi ako if kaya ko pa po mahabol, lalo na po ung bagsak :(( eto po ung grades ko:
    Histology – 1st shifting 73
    Physiology – 1st shifting 71
    Gross anat – 1st shifting 80
    Neuro – 1st shifting 93
    Biochemical – 1st shifting 77, 2nd shifting 69 :((((
    FCM – 1st shifting 94
    Ethics – 90
    Sorry po and thank you.. Appreciate your response po.

    • Aura Azarcon Post author

      Hi! At the end of the year, there’s a deliberation for those students with failing grades. Meaning if your prof personally knows that you’re exerting effort naman, always present in class, asking questions after the lec, and showing improvement sa grades kahit pa hindi umabot sa 75 pag inaverage, may chance na ipasa ka. So if I were you, start making papansin na. Hahaha. 🙂 In physio, volunteer to be the preceptor in case cons. In biochem, volunteer to be the reporter. In anats – 3rd shifting is easier (GI tract) so galingan mo na. Also, keep up the good work in Ethics, FCM, and Neuro cos that’s like 3 units din combined and it will pull your GWA up at the end of the year. 🙂 And lastly, I hope you’re reading your textbooks.

      • Anonymous

        Thank you po 🙂 kinakabahan po ako.. Mahirap po bang makaline of 80 for 3rd, 4th and final shiftings sa mga subjects? Un na lang po kasi pag asa ko. Sorry po talaga and salamat po ate 🙂 God bless you po!

  • Sherrie Anne Buan

    Hi, Ate Aura! 🙂 Saw your link, and I thought it would be a good read. Anywayyyy, buti pa po kayo, ganun ka-awesome ang first year! Hahaha. Ang pressure masyado nung maintaining and nung scholarship requirements.

    See you on MSS! Good luck po! 🙂