Yearly Archives: 2017

Real People, Reel World

Finally, our lucky season is over. The hype has passed. Is it okay to start talking now?

I originally wrote this post just a few weeks after I got evicted, and it’s been on draft mode ever since. It’s time!

I may no longer be as relevant at the time you are reading this, but what I personally learned and what I am about to share will always be. Especially since the show is said to be returning sooner than we all think. *Source – not so reliable.

To all fans AND haters of Pinoy Big Brother - you wouldn't know, you weren't there.

I fully understand that I agreed to be part of a show that will project me as a person with both likable AND non-likable traits. As was noted by the more discerning viewers though, in that altered reality, anything could be overly emphasized to tell a good story.

Do I sound like I’m bitterly bashing? Haha, believe me, I’m good. Here’s why.

Let me be the first to admit to you that that storytelling has worked in my favor more than once, or at least more times than it has put me in a bad light. The same is true for the other housemates.

So mad props to the real dream team for weaving together our bits and pieces, and coming up with characters that are entertaining enough for primetime, and inspiring enough to be voted, defended, and supported by loyal viewers nationwide.

What I am about then to say is only my assumption.

None Of It Was Scripted, I Swear

It appears to me that we were picked out of thousands who auditioned because our respective backgrounds and personalities fit perfectly in the CHARACTERS they wanted to project. From the start, we already had our roles in the story they wanted to tell.

Individually, we could have been portrayed as someone soft spoken or frank, goody goody or rebellious, quiet or energetic, chill or uptight, goofy or dignified – and a house full of which should naturally end up with an exciting storyline. But there’s more to us than that.

We were real people put in a reel world, to say the least.

That means if some of our actions and reactions were inconsistent with the “character” set for us, the audience will probably not see it on TV.

Here’s a more specific scenario. I was introduced as the “med student who also has a fun side”. I suppose any chance I am caught sounding intelligent ala-doktora but crazy fun with a drink in hand (six times in our season) just a few moments later – that should make it to the narrative.

That made for a very interesting story line, and I guess I don’t mind playing the part especially since a lot of other hardworking students who just want to make their families proud were able to relate. But am I really like that? Do you seriously believe I had zero fun in med school, and I had no time to chill? Luh.

Likewise, the assigned comedian of the group is not trying to be funny 24/7, nor is the resident “bitchesa” always so hard to get along with. It’s just that those parts of their personality are the ones that are most often emphasized on the final edit to elicit good reactions from the viewers. But inside the house, we had no idea what was being aired and what was not. Still, we’re all good.

You Wouldn’t Know Cos You Weren’t There

That said, of all people – only the housemates knew each other best. Even in that altered reality, we learned to get past tolerance and mere “pakikisama” and move on to become actual friends. We enjoyed each other’s company, depended on each other during tasks, and cheered for each other on our individual and group victories.

What’s crazy is how the fans have a tendency to pit one housemate against another, just because of an assumed rivalry or an ongoing tension seen on TV. We can’t blame you. It’s hard to not get carried away if there are matching sound effects and zoomed-in reaction shots of bickering and eye-rolling.

We were even forced many times to nominate each other and to pick our Big Winners, which often subjected us to misinterpretation. It is so, so hard to believe – but I honestly didn’t want anyone evicted, and I didn’t mind being evicted myself.  

Chill people!! Kami sa loob masaya lang! Bakit warla kayo dyan online!
(What I really wanted to say the moment I got out LOL)

I can no longer change the way the audience were made to react during all my facepalm moments, and sometimes I feel weirdly undeserving of all the praises and compliments during my “redeeming” scenes. I admit I still cringe at myself even up to now LOL.

Nonetheless, despite all the twists and whut-whut moments that I only saw much later than all of you did (hindi man lang ako nakareact ng maayos), I had a blast! I never felt like I was being held captive even if I was there for three long months.

Over-all, it was a positive experience for me – mostly because I chose to look at it that way.

Having been a fan of the show since I was a kid, I am definitely looking forward to watching the next editions with fresh new eyes.

As future viewers (I’m just going to be a viewer now), let us always remember to just take the show for what it is – a source of entertainment, inspiration, and for a select few, a ticket to a life changed in an instant. And P.S., just because we saw it on TV, and everyone else on Twitter thinks that way, doesn’t mean it’s how it actually happened in real life.

After all, maybe the pabebe, papansin, and maldita housemates are not actually like that in real life (check the vlogs!), and everyone’s bet for Big Winner really has no idea what she’s doing, and was actually just being.. skrengge!

About To Finish My Internship

I was in the middle of my Pedia rotation last year when I got the confirmation that I’ll be an official PBB housemate. Obviously, I was going to take the opportunity, even if it meant having to repeat my whole internship year if I had to.

Luckily, I was allowed an indefinite leave of absence for my “once in a lifetime”. Our chief resident back then only had one advice.

“Just make sure to come back right away to finish your internship. Pass the boards and then you’re free.”

I saw her again today, and I proudly told her I’m here because of her.

That, as well as the deliberate pros and cons list my boyfriend helped me create, and the “in your face / real talk” I got from a known celebrity doctor that we reached out to.

I am very thankful for their guidance, and it is now more than ever that I appreciate being in this path that I chose.

“Strike while the iron is hot”, they all said.

The iron was NOT yet hot, that I know. My time will come.

For now, I’ve come full circle. My med school life is really about to end. I have two weeks left in my Pedia ER rotation and I’m off to study for the boards.

Packing my things! I’m moving to a study dorm in two weeks!

Three months of pure dedication, one last time, because I want to finish what I started. I will always, always owe it to myself to finish what I started.

Come March 2018, I’ll be free to do what I want.

Now, what do I want? I can’t seem to put it into writing yet.

I want to do a lot, but I also have this unstoppable feeling that I can also be a lot. A lot more than what’s expected, a lot more than what’s required. I guess that’s for another entry.

Inspiration From Dr. Cat Begovic

Cat Begovic, or @beautybydrcat on Instagram, is definitely one of my favorite people to follow online.

She’s a board certified plastic surgeon who likes to post informative and empowering videos for her 1.1 million followers. Yup, we all get our welcome dose of Brazilian butt lifts and labiaplasty procedures on the daily – and I don’t mind!

I never really saw myself as a surgeon, but seeing her kick ass on IG stories makes me think to myself – why the hell not?

The other day, she posted this. I almost felt as though she was talking to me specifically!

Cat Begovic

My favorite part – “Success, spotlight, glit and glam includes also being able to disappear for a while and work on your goals.”

It was just what I needed to hear. I’ve always known I made the right decision to finish my internship despite other possibilities, but I admit I still need a little reminder sometimes.

Yes, it sucks that I was left behind by my batchmates. And it sucks even more to stay in a hospital where everyone yet no one really knows you at the same time.

Nonetheless, I’ll let myself “disappear for a while to work on my goals”. There’s actually only just one. I am so, so excited.

Excuse me while I doctor.

What’s Good?

Hello! I’m now doing my Surgery rotation wherein our call time is earlier than usual at 6:15 am every day.

Despite my perpetual struggle with poor sleeping habits and alarm clocks, I actually LIKE having to go to the hospital that early. We get to do our chart rounds and patient endorsements before 8 am, and sometimes we even have time for a quick breakfast as a group before we assume our posts for the day.

Today we didn’t have that though, because after around 30 minutes of trying to book a ride to the hospital, I got a text that said classes and work in Manila have been suspended for the day due to the weather.

HHHYYEESS!! Usually it’s only the clerks who benefit from cancellation of “classes”, because interns and residents are no longer students. I’m so glad I don’t have to do anesthesia clearance today. <3

So far, so good. I have already changed back into my pajamas, finished my morning cup of coffee, watched one episode of This Is Us, and I’m now ready to post this blog update. I figured I should do more of this instead of tweeting in threads and posting “TLDR” captions on Instagram.

(I finally know what TLDR means after someone commented it on one of my posts. Umm thanks!)

How about you? What’s good?


How To Be A Medical Doctor In 6 Years (BS Human Biology Program)

About the BS Human Biology program

You may or may not know that my original pre-med course was BS Human Biology in De La Salle University Manila. For a little background, this is the official course description from the DLSU website.

The Bachelor of Science in Human Biology is a three-year program of De La Salle University main campus (DLSU-Taft) being offered in consortium with De La Salle University College of Medicine (DLSU-Med) of the DLSU Health Sciences Institute.


The program allows highly qualified students to obtain the Doctor of Medicine degree from DLSU-Med in just six (6) years. The first two-year courses will be taken at DLSU-Taft while the third year courses will be taken at DLSU-Med. The third year courses are the first year courses of the regular medicine proper students of the College. These will be taken together with the regular first year students of the DLSU-Med.


After obtaining the BS Human Biology degree, the graduate will be admitted into the DLSU-Med directly into the second year of medicine proper. A student thus obtains his Doctor of Medicine in only six (6) years.

The first two years are spent in De La Salle University Manila as an undergraduate student, and upon completion, students are accelerated straight to medical school in De La Salle Health Sciences Institute on their third year. When they finish this first year in med school (or “third year of college”), that’s the only time they get a college diploma (BS Human Biology). Then they continue to 2nd, 3rd, and 4th year medicine as usual.

Wow! A shortcut to medicine? Sounds like a big advantage, yes. But of course there are pros and cons to everything, and in my experience, these are just some:

All About The BS Human Biology in DLSU – The Pros and Cons


Feeling Domesticated

Life update!

It’s been three weeks since I started my Community Medicine rotation. That means I have no overnight shifts at the hospital, and I have all my weekends off. Most days I even get to go home by lunch time!

So what have I been doing with all this free time?

I’ve been attempting to study and shoot and edit videos in advance so I can have time to study, but most of my time are actually eaten up by..