Hellooo! I just finished my first two months as a post-graduate medical intern. My first rotation was in Internal Medicine, which is possibly the most toxic in terms of patient volume and workload, but also the most high-yield in terms of learning and experience.
As you know, I’m doing my internship in the same hospital where I did my clerkship. We’re required to stay as a form of “return service” because we were partial scholars throughout med school. For PLM med students belonging to Category 1 and 2, take note of this special arrangement.
A part of me can’t help but feel that we’re missing out just because we’re still in the same hospital. It would have been interesting to see new cases, techniques, procedures, and insights on patient management. Some of our other classmates are lucky enough to be matched in national hospitals and specialty centers. The rest are enjoying the “culture shock” of being in a private medical institution.
For example, my boyfriend Noe is currently an intern at the Philippine General Hospital. It’s true that interns there act like clerks in terms of carry outs and workload, but it’s nothing a PLM-OMMC graduate would ever complain about. Perhaps I should have him write a guest post here. He has a lot more stories to tell. 🙂 (#KeepUp LOL)
Nonetheless, staying here has its own perks. It’s not just our newly renovated floors and the availability of more diagnostic facilities. (Um, we didn’t have a functional x-ray for most of my clerkship year.)
For one, we are allowed to really step up as interns, mainly because we are no longer clerks. Clerkship for me last year was the time to focus on history taking, proper physical examination, and mastering procedures such as inserting all sorts of tubes and extracting all sorts of fluids. Now, as interns, our focus should be on diagnosis, management, and supervising our clerks. We also get to do next-level procedures such as intubation, thoracentesis, lumbar taps, and more.
Sometimes, I can’t help but pause and feel weird that I’m at this stage of my training already. “Meee?? You trust that I can insert an IV line to our DOA patient the fastest? You’re handing me the laryngoscope as if I got this intubation down? You’re leaving me here to run this code? Meeee?”
I swear I felt the same way just as I was starting clerkship. (Read my first post HERE!)
Maybe it’s always going to be this way as I further my medical career. It will always be exciting as I see or do things for the first time. It will always be nerve wracking as I take on new responsibilities and fulfill higher expectations. But no matter what, I will always look back and be proud of how I survived every seemingly impossible task. All my entries in this blog serve as proof. Indeed, medicine is long, hard, and demanding – but every challenge just prepares you for the next.
Little by little, we become doctors.
P.S. Congratulations in advance to my former senior interns who just finished taking the Physician Licensure Exams. I have a really good feeling about this year. It’s time to bring back 100%! God willing, I’ll be in your place one year from now. 🙂